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**Mood Swings on Neurotransmitter Protocol **😵💫🌀
I’m on a 5-HTP/L-Dopa balancing protocol - and sometimes, it flips my mood like a switch. One moment, despair; 10-15 minutes later after serotonin level correction, - a nearby good mood.
A week more left, and now I know how, and all is allright.
I cancel neurotransmitters bcz actually on vacation I don’t have that stress and it’s not ok to drink’em for a long time.
Toxic Guy & Possible Testosterone Overload 😤💉
A kind of an insight after I realized how’s difficult to manage the mood on neurotransmitters.
I’ve realized the toxic vis-à-vis might be overdoing testosterone - pills/injections, ‘cause he’s over 40.
Explains the aggression 🤦♀️
Contracts / Job Hunt: DevOps, Flexible 💻🔧
After I got a refuse from Keen, I decided maybe that’s not my path right now.
So now I’m looking for contract-based, part-time DevOps gigs - but also open to full-time. Weighing options.
Vacation? Technically. 😅
Technically on vacation… but ignoring my ‘relax’ plans because my project.
Not a side thing anymore. At least not to me.
Back and forth with AI agents - DeepSeek, Cursor - doing things I never imagined possible. First-time territory. Wild focus.🤖
I hate and love them the same time -
it’s annoying when there’s a lot of irrelevant code they add,
and I’m thankful that I can do faster what I’m doing right now.
Mental Training: Selective Focus 🧠🔍
I’m training myself to filter out negativity - news, moods, events. Before, I spoon-fed myself everything that came my way, and it inevitably led to regular breakdowns. Now? Only what moves me forward.
Now I think most people won’t like this change in me.
Why Karma stopped talking and went? Why she is shy?
When Someone Actually Answers Your ‘Dumb’ Questions (And Why It Matters) 💡
Massive appreciation to @Alex_Magicstep - who meets my endless curiosity, taking time to guide my learning, and thoughtfully respond to my questions. Their ability to meet me where I’m at in the learning process has been transformative.
Many people see the problem and point my attention to it, (So do they think I’m not seeing it? 🤔 So what do they want? To shame me? To help me without giving real steps?!)
And only she is giving working solutions, that really help me (I see it with time) ❤️
There Are No Dumb Questions - Only Unanswered Ones That Keep You Stuck for Years 🕳️👁️
Without those answers I needed, my ‘learning process’ would have stretched endlessly.
Here’s the hard truth: Even with clairvoyance, you’re still blind to the exact parts of reality where:
1️⃣ You must take responsibility (but you avoid it)
2️⃣ You need to grow (but you resist)
3️⃣ Therapy might be required (but you resist)