Imposter Syndrome,
Toxicity
and
Professional Success

And how are they all connected? 🤔

This is a journey from fragility to uncovering an unshakable inner foundation.

What a toxic person talk triggered in me… 😤
After the conversation, in 2-3h:
● I feel out of place - when I’m just sitting in my seat quietly 💔
● when I speak I cringe - I don’t want myself or others to hear it 🤐
● I feel like a bumpkin, a low-skilled specialist, etc 🐄
● and in general, I want to disappear and cease to exist because of my meaninglessness ☠️
^^^
this is my reaction to the innocent (really?) communication and my task here is to stop thinking these thoughts about myself and switch to “I can do it” 💪

Now I know and I must keep my eye on it:
✅ If I catch myself early and reclaim my energy → okay
❌ If I spiral and let self-hating thoughts win → NOT okay

I asked myself:

WHO AM I AS A PROFESSIONAL?
I recently started think about who am I as a professional, and it seems to be affecting my well being in a good sence -
👍 I’m less immersed in bad thoughts,
👍 less clinging to the negativity about myself,
👍 and even ceasing to believe in this negativity.

**Earlier I was afraid **

  • of keeping up-to-date my CV - “are you job-hunting?” - no, it’s what my results are.
  • for collecting my results on my work - again, “are you job hunting?” - no I just want to understand my value.
  • showing my knowledge - “it’s not yours, it’s an industry standard” - yes - and I want to show I know it.
  • “you should act on company interests” - and I neglected my..

⚡️ And Noooooow ⚡️
● Acting in my own interests also, not just the company’s, - is normal and right. So…

● before, I used to feel guilty for polishing my LinkedIn and making myself** visible to recruiters**.

● Keeping my CV and LinkedIn updated is a must have.
It doesn’t mean I’m looking for a job, but it’s just a normal state.

● Building a personal brand is good for me

● Social media (even professional) is my personal space. I don’t list my company or references, so what I share is my choice.

● Tracking my results reinforces my value.
When I see the facts, I stop worrying about being a “worthless specialist”.
Goodbye, Imposter Syndrome ).
Thus more sustainable to toxicity, too.
Facts are facts, not words.

● Writing expert content helps too - it’s essential, and it’ll support the educational course I’m developing

Oh right - **I’M CREATING A PROGRAMMING COURSE **on how to code in a way that

  • gives you time to fix your humanoid errors that already on production (sic!)
  • and makes reading the code and maintenance painless and understandable
    😎 😐🙄😊

Looks like @karma_pema_1108 found a resolution for yet another inner conflict.

To believe in smth's is possible is a matter of your inner growth.

If not that person, I won’t be doing this CV / results stuff advocating myself, - so thank you, guy! 🙏