Learning Not to Abandon Myself
As you know, I worked on the 💚 Heart Chakra Blockage
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And then, there was one more thing left.
I felt emotionally battered 💔
- low energy 🪫
- didn’t want to talk much 🤐
Keeping my mouth shut felt right in every situation. No extra questions, even when they were necessary ❌❓
So I started working on it with Reiki
And what I realized afterwards was this:
I had battered myself 🥀
That part was “mine” 🙋♀️
Yes, my negative thoughts were triggered by one person - someone who communicates right on the edge of toxicity ☣️
That alone was enough to activate my inner critic 💭
That’s where my self-aggression starts 💢
That’s the birthplace of my stress 😣
My inner negativity 🌪️.
I had almost killed myself emotionally ⚰️💔
It felt as if I’d been beaten - kidneys, liver, stomach, head - and after that, I simply couldn’t speak.
No wonder… 😞
My Reiki teacher taught me this, and now I’ve discovered it through real-life practice and experience:
The parasite makes people - including myself - attack themselves in their own thoughts. It leads me to believe I’m not worthy, that I should go somewhere else, find a “better” place, and somehow make things easier for everyone by disappearing.
Before, that was my usual strategy - to disappear to make people comfortable without me 😵😰
So now, I continue my energy parasite starvation marathon, I now:
❌ Restrict myself from being negative toward myself.
❌ Restrict myself from judging — myself or others.
IT IS NOT NATURAL FOR PEOPLE TO ATTACK THEMSELFES!
I thought it was me who stupily just cannot be positive – but it was the parasite.
Now I feel I have more energy than I had yesterday
https://youtu.be/O33MzQzLFbc?si=LzPP-jLchH9BLwex
@karma_pema_1108’s found a way to become positive 🔋
without those annoying “just be positive”!!!!
.. so if you abandon yourself, think twice. I walked 6 months to heal it, and 4 months of this path was on 3d Reiki level!
now, I need to finally put my effort on my Cyprus culture exam, so I’ll keep silence here for some time.
bcz you know, writing posts even with the help of AI takes time 🙄